Today

Sitting at my window, inside my hidey-hole, mid afternoon it's 86 degrees, breezy, and humid as grandma's kitchen in front of the swamp cooler. All traffic is incoming and rolling past me toward the water like a trail of fire ants. The 4th of July brings folks to families, the Texas heat brings 'em all to the water.
As my pyromaniac husband (he would admit to that description) is occupied with readying his fireworks project for dark-thirty, I use memories to bring my family in close, where I can hear that blessed family commotion when chaos knocks heads with fun. Those times are a blotch on a square of calendar having a paper trail of more than 30 years. I was born to love a family. Life made me NEED love. I have spent 56 years living every day for the future, always doing what I do now so that something will be a certian way in weeks, months, or years to come. I yearn to live for now, using the minutes and hours as if they were presents to unwrap one by one, revealing today's moments as most important. During all your planning and readying for the future, make it a habit to live for today, savoring what it serves up.